Friday, May 29

stupidity knows no boundaries...

Gay man realizes that stupidity is something no one can fight. Just think about it, the more people fight stupidity, it seems as if all of sudden another thousand just turnd dumber than the ones we have fought. So gay man has decided to embrace stupidity in this blog, so enjoy...

Above is a picture gay man found while browsing eBay. Gay man forgot what he was looking for on eBay. Would you have bought whatever item this guy is trying to sell (gay man thinks it's either the jacket or his ass)?

The second picture is not that stupid, it's more puzzling (for gay man). Gay man checked his hands (the moment he found this pic on the net) and both his ring fingers are longer than his index fingers. Does this make gay man a macho man?

Well maybe, but the macho man from Village People. Gay man may not be one of those flaming/screaming gays (nothing against you my fellow sisters), but he's still gay.

an end...

On May 11th, gay man met Mr. K for the first time. After that monday, gay man and Mr. K met a couple of times. On dates, so to say. Everything was good. Everything was almost perfect, actually. Everytime they meet, they meet for at least for 3 hours (mostly 4 hours) and they never run out of topics for conversations.


Sounds perfect, right? So what seems to be the problem? Last night, gay man and Mr. K met at Mr. K's appartment to watch a movie. They watched "Jeffrey" from 1995. It's such a fun movie, but this is not about the movie. Gay man wanted to know, where everything's heading with Mr. K. And apparently gay man isn't the only curious. Mr. K kind of brought up the topic first after the movie. Gay man wanted to ask a couple of nights before, but in the midst of (as always) interesting conversation with Mr. K, gay man forgot to ask.

Mr. K didn't really ask, he actually made an observation on his behalf, to which gay man only can agree. Mr. K felt no sexual attraction between them. Gay man can only agree, but gay man had to set the record gay (this is A GAY BLOG and not a straight blog...). Gay man's lack of interest in having sex has nothing to do with Mr. K.

Gay man explained that, the lack of interest in having sex began about six or seven months ago. Gay man even explained, that he is a bit worried that gay man might never want to have sex again. But Mr. K assured gay man, that it'll come again (gay man sure hopes it'll come again sooner rather than later).

Though between gay man and Mr. K didn't turn out as gay man might have hoped at the beginning, but gay man is pleased to get to know Mr. K and to actually count Mr. K as a friend. Gay man might not be having any sexual orgasm any time soon, but mind orgasmic conversation is just as good, if not better. Don't you agree? Gay man sure knows that his sister agrees with that. But that is for another post.

Friday, May 15

unnoticed disaster...

Today, I had this feeling like everyone was looking at me the whole time. No matter where I was. Being the self-loving, narcissistic gay man that I am, I of course believe and think "well, that's what happen, when a God walks among mortals". My narcissism is not extreme. It's still in the normal range, but still that's what I think if people stare at me.


I like to believe (and I am pretty sure it is so), if people are looking at me, it's because of how I look. In a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being please cover your head with a brown paper bag, cause showing your face in public without covering it, can also be considered either crime or polluting, I would say I am an 8 or 9 (more likely 9 or 10, but I just want to be humble here). Even a straight ex-tv host, who I think is just as sexy and good looking as I am, who happens to live in the same city I live, looks, if not stares at me, when we pass each other somewhere (I swear, I am not making this up!). But the score I get in this scale is not the issue in this post.

Back to the topic, people were staring at me, which I thought was pretty usual, since they do it almost every day, when they see me.

It is not until when I met a friend of mine, who told me, why everyone was staring at me on this particular day.


He pointed out, that I was wearing the shirt inside out. I was embarassed and blushing, that for another few steps I walked as if I knew nothing about it and went inside a cafe to go to the toilet.

If only I looked one more time in the mirror before leaving the apartment. That's one hell of an important lesson I learned today. That's what mirrors are for.

Wednesday, May 13

official first date...

Last night was gay man's official first date with Mr. K. The date consisted of the usual program. Dinner (candle light), a bottle of gay man's and his friends' favorite white wine and the usual topics about your past, family, etc.


Gay man and Mr. K enjoyed four hours of a great evening. The hardest part would be the part where gay man was about to step out of Mr. K's car. See gay man has changed. He is no longer the gay man that jumps a man when the possibility arises. Gay man had to restrain himself not to fail himself. So when the time came, they said their goodbyes and gay man stepped out of the car. Gay man was, and still is so proud of himself because he was a perfect gentleman last night.

Gay man and Mr. K have on the weekend their second date. This time Mr. K wants to cook. We can only wait and see now, what happens on saturday. Gay man surely hopes that he can restrain himself and be at his best behaviour on saturday as he was last night.

Monday, May 11

a new chapter...

Having watching to many movies in gay man's life, he developed a lot of ideas on how certain things in life should happen.


For instance he imagined he would buy the lottery and win big time like the movie "It Could Happen To You". But having as much luck as the three legged dog, he never did win anything. Not even win back the money he spent buying the lottery.

The next imagination would be how he would have his revenge to all gay men for not seeing him as the hot stud. So gay man would visit the gym as often as he could and reappear in the scene as the stud everyone wants to get to know and get in bed with. As luck would have it, gay man lacks the discipline to pull it through. Gay man just loves food too much to give up anything.

And another imagination would be on how he would meet the man of his dream. The setting was supposed to be a nice cafe on a lake like a certain cafe in a certain metropolitan city in europe. Gay man was suppose to be reading a book, either by David Sedaris or Augusten Burroughs and the man of his dreams was suppose to sit at the next table with a book. It doesn't have to be a book from either author, gay man is reading. They were suppose to laugh because the books they were reading were so funny, they couldn't hold it in any longer. But like the other two imaginations gay man has, life has other plans in store for gay man.

Gay man met a very smart and sexy man a few days ago. The setting was a bar/cafe in the metropolitan city's gay street and the man was supposed to be gay man's best friend's future employer.

The moment the man stepped inside the bar/cafe, gay man thought "this man is not really my type". But as luck would have it, gay man was forced to take back his thoughts. The man (gay man will refer him as Mr. K in the future) is one of the most intriguing, smart, intelligent, well cultured and eventually one of the most sexiest men, gay man has ever met.

After an hour of the meeting, gay man's best friend had to leave to work. Gay man initially wanted to leave the moment his best friend was to leave for work. But after the first hour passed by, gay man finds himself wanting to stay and to chat a bit more with Mr. K.

They talked about a lot of things, from movies, music and past relationships. Gay man found out that evening, that just like gay man, Mr. K hates watching movies not in its original language. They both also hate books that have been translated.

So things went way better than gay man's initial expectation. At the end of the evening, Mr. K drove gay man back home and just before gay man stepped out of his car, Mr. K gave gay man his business card. If there is one thing gay man lacks experience in, it would be the ethics to dating. Like many movies have dictated most of gay man's life, he thought of the three-day-rule. This rule caused gay man to have a dillema the next day. Should he contact Mr. K or not? Against his better judgement, he decided to text Mr. K. One thing gay man hates most is games when it comes to dating, hence the text.

Gay man waited anxiously for a reply from  Mr. K. A few hours passed by and no reply, gay man thought "F*%!, I messed it again this time. He must think I am desperate". The worst part was, gay man and Mr. K agreed on one thing, desperation is very unsexy and is probably a deal-braker. This time gay man was lucky. Really lucky, that he thought he should go out and buy a lottery ticket or set his mind to go to the gym to get his revenge on all gay-mankind, but these thoughts were only present for a split second, for gay man came back to reality hearing his phone ringing again the second time.

Gay man couldn't believe his luck. Just when he thought he messed things up again, it actually payed off to text Mr. K. They ended up having a conversation for half an hour.

The next few days, gay man and Mr. K didn't have that much words to exchange, not because they both were lacking words or topics to exchange, but because Mr. K had to leave the country on business.

Looking forward to his first date with Mr. K, gay man was very excited and very much surprised to receive a call from Mr. K. Apparently Mr. K was waiting for his next plain before he gets home. Still sitting in an airport in a foreign country, Mr. K decided to call gay man for a micro second, just to hear gay man's voice. At first gay man thought that Mr. K came back earlier as planned, but then he found out Mr. K wanted to hear his voice to kill a few micro seconds waiting in an airport. Gay man and Mr. K will be having their official first date soon.

Though they didn't meet in a cafe on a sunny day while reading books next to another, it was still like in a movie. Gay man has to admit, his imagination could be out of a A-List hollywood blockbuster romantic-comedy, although gay man would describe, how they actually met, is more like out of a B-List movie, it couldn't have been any better. It was perfect actually. The not-my-type-but-after-getting-to-know-him scenario was a better story for gay man.

He certainly hopes, if it goes well with Mr. K, that maybe gay man has many more encounters in life, which of course includes Mr. K, that are more A-List materials. But deep down inside, gay man doesn't want to imagine things as they might have been in a movie, just because, he wants a life that is not as well plotted like any movies. He wants his life to be a life and not some scenes from a movie or so.

It was then and there, where gay man decided to stop imagining how his life could have been.

new profound passion...

Gay man was devastated after Mr. X dumped him, that he went to alcohol and drugs for comfort. They did their jobs as expected, but gay man realized that drugs are like bungee jumping (not that gay man ever tried it), but it only gave gay man a momentarily gratification and comfort.


Gay man decided to quit and move on. He did and he decided to write a script for a feature film based on real events of his relationship (the end of his relationship to be more precise). It turned out to be a passion gay man never knew he had.

This new profound knowledge of this new passion has ever since been like a bad case of diarrhea (in a good way). Gay man has been having new ideas for new scripts. Thanks to his loyal moleskine notebook, gay man has been recording his idea on paper.

Gay man loves the process of having new ideas and writing about it. In the midst of new technologies coming to the market every nanoseconds, there's something therapeutic about writing his early drafts on paper. Somehow it keeps his juice flowing (not the juice gay man usually refers on his perverted days. Believe it or not gay man has become a pretty decent and no longer the slutty gay man, he was before).

When people say, after rain comes sunshine, well it's true. Although things with Mr. X didn't end on a happy note, gay man managed to find one thing he prefers to do anytime, writing a script. So the rain has passed, the sun starts to shine again and gay man learned something, something good always comes out of something bad.


He may have thought that his life was coming to an end (it actually did at the time) but now things seem to be even better than it was before.

Gay man is now waiting for feedbacks of two professionals in the movie industry on his script and we'll just have to see where it goes afterwards. Keep your fingers crossed (I know mine are).

look who's back...

I'm back. I am truly sorry that it took me forever to post anything new. Life has been a hell of a rollercoaster ride, but slowly life is back as it should be. So a few updates in gay man's life. Mr. X is out of the picture. As beautiful it might have been with him, it eventually did come to an end.


Was I bummed about it? Hell yeah, but it did give me something to write about. I may not have written anything for this precious little anonymous blog of mine, but I picked up on a project and turning the experience I had with Mr. X a script for a feature film.

Whether any studio is willing to pick the script and actually make a film out of it, is out of my hand now. But I am just glad I wrote it.

I am also more than glad to announce, that I have a few ideas for near future posts. So you'll be seeing a few things here.

Also glad to announce that gay man (yes me) met someone recently. This time it is less drama (hopefully, for starters he's single). I shall refer to him as Mr. K. Smart, intelligent and sharp.

I also found a lot of sites that provided me with eyecandy. These kind of sites are like virus, they're a lot of them and they seem to be growing exponentially, if not faster.

I won't be caught up with this illness like most of them, but a bit of my personal taste for eyecandy might be seen here and there.

So just come back and see if anything new has been posted.

P.S. The last post was actually written a few months back but didn't post it due to lack of time and interest, since it was written a couple of weeks after Mr. X dumped me.

when friends become foes...

Once upon a time in gay man's land, gay man and Alcohol were best friend. The only problem was they could never go out one evening without a certain scene happening. Mostly the scenes happen in front of friends in a private place. Gay man was glad it never happened in public.


One day gay man thought about it. Gay man loves Alkee (gay man's nickname for Alcohol) so much that he was ready to sacrifice certain things, just so their friendship could last.

Gay man spent weeks thinking, what the real problem is, that they could never have a night out together in peace. Then it hit gay man. He realized that Alkee was jealous of gay man. But gay man wonders why.

Gay man came to the conclusion after he recapitulated every single night they went out together. Gay man realized, that at the end of the night, or at the beginning of the day after, that somehow Alkee managed to partially impair gay man's sight, causing gay man to see everything in blur.

Once, gay man woke up in a bed of some guy, he swears, if his sight was never partially impaired, he would not in a million year either sleep with or wake up next to that guy (although gay man would bend his principles in such cases for say... A million dollars? At least).

And that isn't the only case. Once gay man had to be rushed to the hospital, because Alkee convinced gay man not to eat. Bad idea.

After realizing that Alkee wasn't really the best of friends, gay man declared war with Alkee and was looking for someone to fill Alkee's shoes. This was the moment Alkee and gay man became foe.

During this phase, gay man met new friends, who quickly became gay man's new best friends. They were Mary Jane, Cocs and Ee. They all had fun and for a certain moment gay man totally forgot about Alkee.

But out of the three new friends, Mary Jane was the only one who was half way true and loyal. Ee and Cocs were mostly friends in good times, and Lord knows, where they were in bad times.

After a while gay man realized there is a way to become friends again with Alkee. Gay man contacted Alkee to declare truce. Alkee was more than glad to welcome the truce declaration. Alkee missed gay man as much as gay man missed Alkee, but Alkee was just to glad that one of them made the first move.

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